Overall, I'm feeling better. Not as morose as I have been the last few weeks and on the job front, that's looking up as well. Going through difficult times, it's hard to see things will improve, even if only slightly, so it's even harder to feel motivated to do anything, which makes the vicious cycle of feeling tired, too tired to workout, no energy, feeling tired, all the more real.

Right now I have to tend to a few more offline things, to get my head str8 again, and I can begin to climb out of my current funk. I guess I should look for the bright side and all the lessons that came out of this. The fact of the matter is, life happens. Period.

It's on me to figure out how not to let that derail what I'm doing to lose weight or use it as an excuse to indulge in excess food or spend loads of money, which are all things I've been doing in an attempt to "feel better".

Did I forget to mention I'm taking a night class on Tues, Thurs & Sat? I think so. So yea, I'm taking this class, started early this month, ends Thanksgiving weekend. Which means...No Biggest Loser Updates From Me. Oh well. I know I can watch online, but w/a a dial up connection, it'll be January before I'm able to wrap up what went down on the first episode. On a brighter note, DSL is scheduled for completion sometime in December. Just in time for Season 5.

Hard to focus on blogging the last few weeks, especially last week. I'm still waiting on some job news and once I hear back, I can mentally move forward. I tend to zoom in on what ever it is I'm doing 110% so not knowing and being in limbo drives me bonkers.

As soon as I know something about that part of my life, I can devote some brain cells back to this site. Till then, my site bids you a Happy First Day of Autumn!

• Walk, elipp or precor 275 miles (22.91 miles per week in 13 weeks)

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I never quite understood, or perhaps related, to people struggling to lose weight while going through fights and drama w/their significant other. I have no significant other but am going through my own drama and the truth is, right now it's very hard to care about myself when all my emotional energy is spent feeling very very bad.

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I really wish people would STOP saying Britney Spears looks fat. She does not and is not.

She may be a bit fleshy and by that I mean, her arms aren't rock hard and her stomach may be softer than BEFORE SHE FUCKING HAD TWO CHILDREN IN TWO GAWDAMNED YEARS...how about they pull off that feat before the bash her huh?

And what pisses me off is that stupid shit is coming from both men, who far as I know, can't pass a marble out their own pee pee, so who are they to talk about how the tummy of a mother of two should look...and from women. WOMEN!!! Y'all should know better.

Especially given that the majority of Americans are obese. So unless it's colt shaped 7 year old girls bashing Britney, every one who is, needs to don the same black outfit and post it a pic of themselves in it along w/their commentary.

I mean really. Fat?

What the fuck does that make me Shamu the whale? Shut up.

When I say Callie is crazy, I'm sure people think, oh how cute, that must just mean she's fiesty. NO! This chick is NUTS! Even my mother says she has ADD. If they made Ritalin for cats I tell ya...

So yea, this is my 2nd posting in a row. Hey, just cuz I said I'd get back to daily blogging didn't mean it was gonna be about my flabby gut ::

Speaking of gut. There outta be a law.

My mother left this morning, she'll be back on Wednesday.

I have to admit, for years when I'd read people's blogs who like lived w/others, be it hubby, baby or mommy, I couldn't figure out how they allowed that person to derail them.

I am now paying BIG TIME for my judgment.

It's Harrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrd out here for a loser.

• Walk, elipp or precor 275 miles (22.91 miles per week in 13 weeks)

Week 1: 15.46
Week 2: 5.47
Week 3: 10.53
Week 4: 37.68
Week 5: 13.85
Week 6: 9.76
Week 7: 10.32
Week 8: 12.07
Week 9: 5.30
Week 10: 9.40

Weeks to go: 534.87
Miles to go: 3 (48.74 miles/week) BWHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAAA!

All that talk about being excited for The Biggest Loser to start and I promptly missed the show. I crashed @ 8pm and didn't wake up till the alarm went off this AM. I checked their site to see if they posted the episode online, doesn't look like it.

Oh well.

Looks like I'll have to scour reality tv blogs and forums to get a whiff of what happened.

The weekend was HECTIC. After living out of boxes and bags for over a month, I FINALLY unpacked my crap. Took just about the entire day yesterday, but I feel much better seeing my stuff and having things in a home. Took me ½ a second to find my nail clippers vs. tearing threw boxes for hours and weeks later not being able to find it.

On the fitness front, here's where things are at:

• Walk, elipp or precor 275 miles (22.91 miles per week in 13 weeks)

Week 1: 15.46
Week 2: 5.47
Week 3: 10.53
Week 4: 37.68
Week 5: 13.85
Week 6: 9.76
Week 7: 10.32
Week 8: 12.07
Week 9: 5.30

Weeks to go: 4
Miles to go: 159.98 (39.99 miles/week)