Now that I got that all off my chest, the good news is, my things will be here soon and the 8 pieces of furniture I put together this weekend has me feeling a LOT more organized. When the bed comes, I will feel tons better.
As far as weight is concerned, something about reading back what I said really hit me. I did a lot of soul searching and realized I've been living in denial about things for a very long time. I also felt a huge need to issue a mea culpa on snarking about other people.
From the safe distance of my computer, it felt harmless, but it's not. Granted when people go on TeeVee or put themselves out there it comes w/the territory, but it's no excuse for me not to acknowledge the real person behind the personality and I will do my best to always keep that in mind going forward.
Back to weight, I have decided to do an extremely radical approach. Something I have never done before, something all experts on…
I am going aim to lose ½ – 1lb a week, tops.
It is extremely radical to me b/c for all these years, I have wanted more lost per week and didn't get it and that simple failing has been the core of my perpetual downfall ever since. I just didn't get why it was so hard.
The story I was quoted in, w/the experts weighing in and me realizing how caught up I have gotten in the lose weight fast, lost xxlbs by xx date, had driven me absolutely nuts.
I so wanted this year to be the end of it. So wanted to end this blog on a high note, b/c I got so tired of the same shit/different year.
But when I did my soul searching, had I taken that simple basic approach, the same 5 years I've been going @ this, I would've lost 130lbs. I hate that I'm not getting it thru my thick skull, but that's the way it goes sometimes and on that note, this blog, as you know it, will end.
Tomorrow I'll post about what's to come
