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Coming soon: My dream
March 22, 2006 by Renee @ 10:13 AMNo dearheart I didn't misspell the word kiss 
If you've been reading my site for a few months, you may remember I posted a dream of going to school to become a personal trainer. I even went as far as to lay out my plan on financing it and then for many reasons never mentioned it again. I went thru an emotionally bad phase @ the end of the last year, I wanted to focus on paying off my cc debt and most importantly despite the fact that I'm an only child I'm not spoiled and am always a bit uncomfortable @ the concept of something for nothing. Things I was handed, I took for granted, it's the things I made huge sacrifices to get that I cherish the most.
But mainly it was my size. I felt I had no right to train anyone when I was gaining weight in leaps and bounds. Until I trained me, I couldn't walk the talk.
This week, as I'm taking care of business, I'm having a lot of epiphanies, especially after watching The Biggest Loser and hitting the gym the next AM where I ran .61 miles vs. the .5 I planned mostly b/c I loved the song I was running to and I was super motivated by those woman. I started getting all sorts of ideas on how I'd combine my inner Jillian w/my inner Bob and really be a kick ass personal trainer.
The desire to go back to school hit me like a brick and in that moment I knew this is the year to make it a reality.
Things never go as planned and my original fantasy was I'd be in school by April. Not gonna happen. Then I settled for July, still a financial unreality and a hectic mess b/c I'm not sure where in Atlanta I'll be living. So there's October, which will make me ready for all the gym n00bs come January.
As an only child, my mother didn't spoil me @ least not in the traditional sense. She didn't shower me w/gifts, just about everything I have I earned outright or @ least had to come up w/½ upfront. She started that when I was 9 and wanted to buy my first video game, I had to save my allowance each week and a month later had enough to splurge. She did that w/my first car, I had to come up with $1750 and she kicked in the rest. She did pay off my first college loans, by the time I got to college #5 I felt I had to prove I was serious and went thru one of the hardest times of my life trying to stay in school not asking for any help. Yet, it is my pride and joy to know I earned my degree in more ways than one.
What I'm about to propose here is no different than the above. At this moment I don't have the $6000 to do the program. I don't even have $600 or $60 for that matter, though I *could* scare up $.60 from my piggy bank. But, before I ask a virtual community for help, and why I'd never be good @ though I tried, running an online begging site, I gotta do what I do best, do my part upfront: Me invest in me, prove that I'm serous and only then if someone is moved to help, will I feel comfortable accepting it.
To show how dedicated and motivated I am to go to school to help other people get fit and healthy I am going to do 2 things, in two parts. Thing #1 will be a fairly easy now and much harder in part two and Thing #2 will be financially hard now a little easier in part two.
@ the end of June, I'll lay out where I'm @ and open the site up for whatever assistance people deem to give, if any. Reading me for a while you'll know if nothing else, I'm creative so I'll have some ways to help directly or some ways where you'll get something out of it too. As for the Things, here's my plan:
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